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December 1, 2010 @ 2:46 PM
if only... if only i were.... i can drop out of school now and study music, psychology, tourism and hospitality whatever i wanna study i can adopt many puppies i can do all my shopping without any worries i can set up my own boutique & restaurant i can learn the piano & guitar i can make everyone's life easier i can make donations to make a difference in other's lives i can do charities i can eat buffet all the time (provided i don't get fat) i can put on braces/straighthen my teeth..etc i can do lasik i don't have to work part time maybe i'll be happier, maybe not if only.... November 15, 2010 @ 2:35 PM
work is lousy without ________. back to work... exams ended 2 weeks ago.. need $$$ desperately..started working asap... turning 21 in 6 days i dont wanna be 21 its the legal age where i am no longer considered a minor. boos. hate it. growing up is lousy. means i have to face all the crap in life. eg. utility bills. make major decisions. get a decent job and start earning money and contributing to the family. no more school holidays where i can slack and just play. slog like a horse when i nail that 8-5pm job. etc. yucks. hopefully no office job for me. i hate it. hate office jobs. and people. even though im working part time i know i'll hate office jobs. office politics.etc. even as part-timers i HATE the job scope and on-goings. i dont think i can live if i held this type of jobs full-time. office sucks now its not like those times when yanting, andrew, ivan , jasmine and the tall, dark and muscular xueting were still around. its different now. less fun. more hostile??? mmm... i dont know. but its just different. its wierd that im turning 21 i dont feel more responsible or grown up its just like any other birthdays except that 21st are considered a big event and BIG presents are received??? gees. if only... just if.... i wish.. i can start thinking what to wish for... lol... November 2, 2010 @ 4:55 PM
OT was horrible..but I hope I'll pass.Please!!! I am so dead for my OT..I sincerely with all my heart and soul pray I can pass it..I honestly dun wanna repeat it..it's he'll for me..I memorized everything but dunnoe why my mind will just blank out..great..I went in "with a peace of mind.BLANK"..and the invigilator is just super damn (I dun wanna use the word BUT she is just damn) guai lan..I swear..dunnoe why the f is she angry or not happy at..she just practically snide at anyone who left earlier..hey hello auntie!!! (maybe) except for me,those people who left early might be due to the fact that they studied enough and knows what to write that's why they left early cause they completed and finished whatever they were supposed to write..not because they didn't know what other crap to write ok??damn angry with her..I waited until I cannot tahan cause dunnoe why sudden gastric sizesure..and I dunnoe what other crap I could write..and I decided that in gonna freeze in there even with my cardigan on..and since I wouldn't think of anything else to write,I might as well leave than waste my time siting there..so I left..and auntie!!! I have NEVER EVER circle any questions which are not MCQ so YOU should be more f patient..I didn't give you face I didnt give you attitude right??WTF did I do to you??and you had to give me the "are you stupid ??or dumb" face??!!!and say stuff like "you mean you dunnoe how to circle??just cross it out and write B..you mean you dunnoe??" WTF..go to helll la.. anyway 1 more down..I really hope I pass this paper..dont have to be flying colors..just as long as I dun have to repeat this module I'll be grateful..honest.. 1 more paper on Thursday and I'm free until next year..when the new term/sem starts... October 27, 2010 @ 8:08 PM
bad day bad news okkaes. today is a BAD day for me..real BAD.. I had my investment exam today..it was ok I think I can pass but still... just found out that jonghyun is dating shin se kyung!!! like OMGAWD???for real?? turned out its real.. 'm devastated.. well..I can reduce the size & number of his pics in my birthday scrapbook since he wouldn't be there to celebrate my birthday for me since he has se kyung now.. this explains why he have been testing testing testing non stop.. got the picture now.. they've been dating for a month now.. I need to digest this.. arhhh..it's hard to accept... SAD SAD SAD October 24, 2010 @ 10:56 PM
I really need to sleep early just found out from twitter that jonghyun wasn't at the KPop night concert..apparently he wasn't well enough to perform..of course..I knew it..but I thought maybe he would sit down and just sing but nope he didn't even turned up in SG..hmm..a little disappointed though I didn't even get to go to the concert...saw some of SHINee's performance through fancams..hmm..taemin did a pretty good job of covering jonghyun's part..esp the long high note in Lucifer..and as usual Onew's singing is ...oh!!and key!!! but they left SG too quick..reckon jonghyun is missing them back in Korea..lol.. hope jonghyun recovers soon... investment exams on this coming wed..nervous..I don't feel prepared at all..I hope I can sail through it smoothly..I dont ever wanna repeat any of the modules..waste of money and time..as if having the same nightmare once isn't enough..I don't wanna repeat everything all over again.. anyway I have done the booking of venue and buffet..all I have to do now is wait for the buffet man to call me and confirm my orders..oh!! and I have to go shop for birthday decorations after my exams..and also print pictures and finish up my scrapbook..and what else..hmm..I have to get a new organizer as well for year 2011..hmms..hope it's a better year ahead..lol..an being a kiasu SGporean I have already thought of my 3 birthdae wishes..I really really hope all of them will come true...I don't think they are hard to fulfill so I really really hope they will come true...hehehes.. October 23, 2010 @ 10:17 PM
KPop Night SG 2010...JongHyun disappointed..couldn't attend the KPop Night concert tonight..SHINee came!!and of course Big Bang!!the tickets were pretty expensive..and I'm having my investment exams on the 27th...well I don't feel prepared for the upcoming papers..but anyway..not gonna talk about the depressing stuff (which in this case are my upcoming exams)... there were rumors that jonghyun wouldn't be attending tonight's KPop Night Concert due to his leg injury..but he came after all..I hope he's feeling better and his leg is recovering well..his leg looked pretty bad with the cast and everything..saw from twitter that SHINee performed Replay,RDD,Lucifer and Hello!!! wonder if jonghyun joined them in the entire performance (dance + sing) or did he just sing..I think the doctor asked him to rest for at least 2 weeks...hope SHINee enjoyed their stay in SG this time and hope SG Shawols left a good impression this time cause from what I read the other time,SHINee thought SG fans were (erm) rude??I don't want them to dislike Singaporeans..I want them to like us..esp Jonghyun... I hope SHINee has time to really tour SG but they are going back to Korea tomorrow morning..what a pity..read it off some fans who tweeted that they wanna stalk them..lol... October 7, 2010 @ 10:38 PM
Friend's Wedding??? & My Dream Last Night.. its getting too wierd i still find it hard to accept people around me are getting married too soon was on FB today and i saw my primary school crush getting MARRIED??? wth... and my cousin who is getting married this month, his wife is only 17?and he's 29? and someone i know who is also 21 this year is having her 2nd baby... seriously... the thought of getting married too early seems... i don't know but i think that early marriages are much harder to maintain than late marriage (only my opinion) imagine having to look at only that one particular person for the rest of your 50,60 years enduring all his bad habits and stuff but of course, i wouldnt mind if he's the love of my life but how many people in the world actually married the love of their life and even the most perfect husband/being on earth has their flaws and bad habits so.... its not that i'm not looking forward to marriage but marrying someone at 21 just doesnt seem right for me it never occurred to me that i might one day attend my friend's wedding... but it does now... anyways had the most absurd dream last night it was a sweet dream BUT also a nightmare its too embarassing to blog it here (even though i don't think alot of people are following my posts) i wouldnt mind dreaming it again, BUT, this time there should be a change in the roles... [YOU!!!yes, YOU!!! don't know where the heck you come from!!! Go Away (eh eh eh eh)!!! stay away!!! this is my dream!!!you shouldnt be here...shouldnt be spoiling my dream!!!] i've been dreaming alot to dream this dream!!!don't ruin things for me!!!GO AWAY AH LIAN!!! HE IS MINE!!! |
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